Sometimes it's just Unexplainable

Death comes... Unexpectedly for some, and like a long awaited friend for others. Death can be sudden or slow, it can be painless or bear intense suffering. Death can be seen as a thief- coming in the middle of the night and stealing a life. Death can be shattering, sorrowful, and breaking to those left alive or it can be something that the living look on with kindness as their loved one's agony is ended. Death is looked on with hope for those who have assurance in their salvation. For those who forsake their flesh and sacrifice for Christ; for those who choose to be called a fool by the world and a child by God; for those who have lived their life with a finger pointing to the heavens, living their lives in submission to Christ... Death for those is, to quote Peter Pan, "an awfully grand adventure."

As humans we want to understand. We don't get it, we will never get it- why a God of perfect Love and Kindness would take a youth from his parents, his family, his wife. But this is what matters, this is the truth: God knows. We don't have to understand, He does. He has a purpose, He knows the number of our days, and He will bring glory to His name through these circumstances. In the end, this thread that is unexplainable will be seen amidst a huge tapestry, and it will be beautiful, glorifying to God on High.

Addison Road has a song titled, "What do I know of Holy," and the lyrics are listed below. This song tends to put things into a greater perspective. It helps to refocus the heart from the here and now and flesh to the eternal and spiritual and holy.

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven but I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small, I never feared You at all, no
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes, could I behold You?

What do I know of You who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood but the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were might to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

What do I know of You who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood but the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life it's name?
What do I know of holy of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name on earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

What do I know of You who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood but the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of Holy?

My heart breaks for a wife who has lost her husband, for parents who have lost a son, and for siblings who have lost a brother. For those who have lost a friend, a beloved family member, and a brother in Christ... Prayers are lifted up for them, but words... There are none.


Nicholas James Garbarino: August 11, 1989 - January 26, 2012

Nick passed on from this life at about 1:30 am last night. He was in Andi's arms, and surrounded by his family and friends. -[Richard Garbarino]

We will miss you Nick. But despite our tears and sorrow we will rejoice with you and the knowledge that you are with your Heavenly Father- free of pain and suffering.